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Yosyuku's Diary

Monday, 21st October 2024

Am I wasting my time and energy?


I have a certain mental illness and I have heard before that the average life expectancy of people with mental illness is in their 60s.
But is it true?
I thought so and searched in Japanese.
I found this information.
The title was 'Life expectancy of people with mental illness is more than 20 years shorter than that of the general population - Health inequalities among the mentally disabled'.
That was the title of the document.
But the people who wrote that document were looking at the life expectancy of people with severe mental illness who had transitioned to community life after a long-term hospitalisation.
I have never had a psychiatric hospitalisation.
So it may not be entirely applicable.

Also, patients with the same illness as me have an average life expectancy of 10 years less, and 60% of the causes of untimely death are unrelated to suicide.
A website also said that.

A few years ago, I bought and read the Japanese translation of the book Hidden Valley Road, which Barack Obama chose as one of his best books of the year.
Apparently, the medication prescribed to people with the same disease as me to suppress their symptoms is not good for their health.
On the belt of the book, it said in large print: 'Born or bred'.

I'm just looking for clues as to how much time I have left.
If it doesn't seem like much, I want to do the best I can with the limited time I have by picking and choosing what I do.

I was not making too much progress with my coding studies, so I wanted to find out early on if I was wasting my time.
A techie internet friend said that the first three months or so after starting to learn would be incomprehensible.
I want to get a primary school programming textbook and read it.
I could also aim to get an IT qualification, which seems to be less difficult.

I wrote in this diary the other day that I would focus on working until I turned 60 for money.
I was lucky enough to be rehired at 60 and was working, but one day I collapsed and died.
On reflection, that's not a bad thing at all.
The person's hobbies were web production and learning coding.
The person wanted to be a musician when they were young, but they didn't study hard enough and didn't make it.

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